I am sitting in the library with Chase and we are both looking for jobs and applying for them... It is kind of fun, but not really. I think that I would rather poke my eyes out with sharp, infected sticks than go through the "fun" of filling out another online application.
I need to move out of my room this weekend. I am still undecided as to where, but that needs to be figured out soon. My Grandpa has said that he would let me stay in one of his unoccupied houses in Sumner for free. This would be awesome, but it is in Sumner. I drove around there the other day and I got the distinc impression that I am called to Tacoma, not Sumner. I hope to find a place to live in Tacoma soon, there is some hope, it just needs to happen.
Chase and I also went shopping yesterday and I spent $95 on much needed new clothes. I am very happy because I got a pair of jeans, 3 pairs of shoes and a cool flannel shirt, all for under $100!!! I am proud of myself a little bit.
As for the job search... I dunno. There are some cool places that I could work, but it is hard to apply for them sometimes. I am in the process of applying at Pierce County Sheriff, so if I get that job in 4-6 months, I would be leaving any job that I would get now, so it is hard to say I will be there for a long time when I hope that I am not going to be... entiendas? I hope so, because I don't sometimes.
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Monday, January 22, 2007
Burn Out...
One of the few problems with being a Man on Fire, is that you can burn out sometimes. I am not talking about God or anything, but I am ready to be done with Campus Safety. I do not have much desire to work anymore and the only thing that motivates me anymore is working with cool people and the fact that I am done in less than two weeks. What is next after that... I still dunno.
Here is a random thought for you... You know how the Bible says that the wages of sin is death (Romans 6:23) but I never really understood that. I know that sin is bad and that it is bad for you, but for some reason it never just clicked for me. I was thinking about this the other day when I had an impression. It was my life back before I came into personal relationship with Jesus. I was an angry, frustrated, power hungry, driven and forceful person that was never good enough for anything. The Lord showed me that my past life was my form of death. I may not die right away from a specific sin or any other falling short of God's Glory (Romans 3:23) but I will suffer spiritual death.
Much like the human body, I think that we can suffer death and still be ok otherwise. Everday, millions, even billions of cells die and are recycled or discarded within a human body. If the body does not have the ability to clear out the dead stuff, the entire body will die. I was thinking about this and maybe this can apply to my spiritual life as well. Everyday I sin, everyday... So the dead stuff in my spirit needs to be removed every day, and often. I don't want the spiritual death to build up in my spirit, so I need to use God's gracious gift of repentance to clear out the gunk. This is a natural process that should require little outside help, beyond the potty training we receive as kids.
Sometimes, spiritual death can be little, a few cells dieing in the natural course of life, but other times there can be a debilitating injury that requires special intervention by a trained professional. This is where the act of confession comes in. A person who we trust to be able to help us, a mentor or a pastor or even some really good friends, is able to heal us by hearing our confession (James 5:16) and praying with us. In this function, massive healing is able to occur to our spirit and we are able to become whole again in ways we did not think possible...
I like this analogy, it has to do with medicine!!! I hope it makes sense and that no one thinks I am preaching excessively...
Here is a random thought for you... You know how the Bible says that the wages of sin is death (Romans 6:23) but I never really understood that. I know that sin is bad and that it is bad for you, but for some reason it never just clicked for me. I was thinking about this the other day when I had an impression. It was my life back before I came into personal relationship with Jesus. I was an angry, frustrated, power hungry, driven and forceful person that was never good enough for anything. The Lord showed me that my past life was my form of death. I may not die right away from a specific sin or any other falling short of God's Glory (Romans 3:23) but I will suffer spiritual death.
Much like the human body, I think that we can suffer death and still be ok otherwise. Everday, millions, even billions of cells die and are recycled or discarded within a human body. If the body does not have the ability to clear out the dead stuff, the entire body will die. I was thinking about this and maybe this can apply to my spiritual life as well. Everyday I sin, everyday... So the dead stuff in my spirit needs to be removed every day, and often. I don't want the spiritual death to build up in my spirit, so I need to use God's gracious gift of repentance to clear out the gunk. This is a natural process that should require little outside help, beyond the potty training we receive as kids.
Sometimes, spiritual death can be little, a few cells dieing in the natural course of life, but other times there can be a debilitating injury that requires special intervention by a trained professional. This is where the act of confession comes in. A person who we trust to be able to help us, a mentor or a pastor or even some really good friends, is able to heal us by hearing our confession (James 5:16) and praying with us. In this function, massive healing is able to occur to our spirit and we are able to become whole again in ways we did not think possible...
I like this analogy, it has to do with medicine!!! I hope it makes sense and that no one thinks I am preaching excessively...
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
What am I going to write about today?
I wonder, what I should tell you dear readers about today... I know that not many of you read this who don't see me almost everday and that you all know the stuff going on, but writing here is a real cathartic release for me and I really enjoy it. So what do you want to know about... I wonder, what are the questions burning in your mind for Samuel to answer?
As far as my future goes... I HAVE NO IDEA!!! I have kicked around some ideas, but they are all different and sometimes they don't seem to add up too well. What if I were to get into Law Enforcement? I think that I would make a good police officer, but do I really want to do that? I would rather work for a Fire Department or an Ambulance company but those jobs are few and far between with oogles of applicants that I would have to beat out for the job.
Pastor Lance told me that he could hook me up at the Costco distribution center in Sumner, so I think that would be a good opportunity for me. I could use that as a stable job and then apply myself to doing other things, like getting my EMT and going to work at Mary Bridge or applying and testing for Fire Service jobs. Maybe that would be the best course... but God is up to something big right now and I want to be along for the ride!!!
Pastor Lance has begun to take me under his wing and mentor me in a real way. Mark will always be my mentor in life, he will always be my spiritual father and never be replaced in my heart, but Lance is my ministry mentor. I am excited to learn from him and hang out with him. He asked me if it was ok to call me and drag me along on stuff that he is doing, so this is an opportunity to grow significantly in my ministry experience and to "learn the ropes" as it were.
Campus Safety is good, but I am ROAD right now. One of my supervisors, who served in the Air Force told me about that, he said that I am Retired On Active Duty; my replacement has been trained and I am just counting the days until I am done. 40 hours a week of the same thing can get monotonous (understatement of the year) but I only have 2 1/2 weeks left so I will press on. I like my job and the people I work with, but I am at the place where I need to be promoted or move out and I am moving out soon! I will miss the ability to go places on campus that most people have never seen or knew existed... I can honestly say that I have been in every single building on campus, sometimes for legitimate reasons.
I would like to study music in a way. I watched the Producers with some friends today and I have fallen in love with musicals! I realize how little I know about music and how much it doesn't make sense to me sometimes. I know the basics, and I am getting better at reading it on a sheet, but I don't know it very well. It is something I love and because of that, I desire to understand it. Why does a certain chord progression work vs. another or what about this melodic line makes it stand out. What do I have to do to this chord to make it a diminished or even a minor? I love music and performing music, but I am limited by my lack of knowledge. I also want to produce and arrange music and a thorough knowledge of what is going on in the song is essential to that.
Part of thinking about this comes from a meeting I had with Anto Marin. He is a friend, who is married to my friend Jenae who graduated with me in December. He has a bunch of songs written and he wants to sit down with me and arrange them and get them ready to record. I love the idea of going into the studio with him, but I am woefully unprepared. I can hear things in my head, but expressing them is another thing altogether; and we are not even getting to my lack of experience in studio recording! My Dad has done it for years and even has his own home studio, but I never took the time to learn from him. This was mostly due to his method of teaching, a lot of watching and little explanation or experience, but I look back and wish that I had got more out of that then I did. Oh well...
This turned out to be longer than I expected...
As far as my future goes... I HAVE NO IDEA!!! I have kicked around some ideas, but they are all different and sometimes they don't seem to add up too well. What if I were to get into Law Enforcement? I think that I would make a good police officer, but do I really want to do that? I would rather work for a Fire Department or an Ambulance company but those jobs are few and far between with oogles of applicants that I would have to beat out for the job.
Pastor Lance told me that he could hook me up at the Costco distribution center in Sumner, so I think that would be a good opportunity for me. I could use that as a stable job and then apply myself to doing other things, like getting my EMT and going to work at Mary Bridge or applying and testing for Fire Service jobs. Maybe that would be the best course... but God is up to something big right now and I want to be along for the ride!!!
Pastor Lance has begun to take me under his wing and mentor me in a real way. Mark will always be my mentor in life, he will always be my spiritual father and never be replaced in my heart, but Lance is my ministry mentor. I am excited to learn from him and hang out with him. He asked me if it was ok to call me and drag me along on stuff that he is doing, so this is an opportunity to grow significantly in my ministry experience and to "learn the ropes" as it were.
Campus Safety is good, but I am ROAD right now. One of my supervisors, who served in the Air Force told me about that, he said that I am Retired On Active Duty; my replacement has been trained and I am just counting the days until I am done. 40 hours a week of the same thing can get monotonous (understatement of the year) but I only have 2 1/2 weeks left so I will press on. I like my job and the people I work with, but I am at the place where I need to be promoted or move out and I am moving out soon! I will miss the ability to go places on campus that most people have never seen or knew existed... I can honestly say that I have been in every single building on campus, sometimes for legitimate reasons.
I would like to study music in a way. I watched the Producers with some friends today and I have fallen in love with musicals! I realize how little I know about music and how much it doesn't make sense to me sometimes. I know the basics, and I am getting better at reading it on a sheet, but I don't know it very well. It is something I love and because of that, I desire to understand it. Why does a certain chord progression work vs. another or what about this melodic line makes it stand out. What do I have to do to this chord to make it a diminished or even a minor? I love music and performing music, but I am limited by my lack of knowledge. I also want to produce and arrange music and a thorough knowledge of what is going on in the song is essential to that.
Part of thinking about this comes from a meeting I had with Anto Marin. He is a friend, who is married to my friend Jenae who graduated with me in December. He has a bunch of songs written and he wants to sit down with me and arrange them and get them ready to record. I love the idea of going into the studio with him, but I am woefully unprepared. I can hear things in my head, but expressing them is another thing altogether; and we are not even getting to my lack of experience in studio recording! My Dad has done it for years and even has his own home studio, but I never took the time to learn from him. This was mostly due to his method of teaching, a lot of watching and little explanation or experience, but I look back and wish that I had got more out of that then I did. Oh well...
This turned out to be longer than I expected...
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
Mary Bridge
I was hoping to be able to write a long post about how I got this great job at Mary Bridge Childrens Hospital and how I knew it was a God thing and how my life was going to be great after January.
Unfortunately I cannot do that. I found out yesterday that I will not be able to work at MB because I do not have a current EMT license. I am kind of frustrated because I could have worked harder at maintaining my certification and I am now reaping the reward of my laziness. But I know that where God closes doors (and this was a big door and looked great!) He will sometimes open windows, or even a better door!
The Nurse Manager I was talking to at Mary Bridge seemed very impressed with me because of the glowing reviews I got from my references (note to self, put their checks in the mail) and my background. He said that if I get my EMT reinstated soon to call and that they would find me an on-call position. I can still work at Mary Bridge, but not until I get my EMT back.
I can hear your next question, "What will it take to get your EMT back?" Great question and I have been working hard at figuring that out. I made contact with a lady in the Pierce County EMS office and she has given me a list of subjects that I need to pass in order to receritfy. I am hoping to be able to audit the EMT class at TCC that they are currently offering so that I can get those class hours and then pass the EMT Final. I cannot just sit for the EMT test again like I was hoping, but this is the next best thing. I will also need to find a Fire Depatment or Ambulance company to maintain my EMT certification. I would be able to go back to Vashon Fire, but I don't want to live on Vashon and finding time to be on the Island is hard... It might be a good thing though, because the Chief of VIFR was a real mentor to me when I really needed it during High School. I should call him again!
Long story short, I am back to being homeless and jobless in February, but God dosen't care about that. God wants me to worry about it as much as He does, and He has a plan already layed out for February... I just need to walk in it.
Unfortunately I cannot do that. I found out yesterday that I will not be able to work at MB because I do not have a current EMT license. I am kind of frustrated because I could have worked harder at maintaining my certification and I am now reaping the reward of my laziness. But I know that where God closes doors (and this was a big door and looked great!) He will sometimes open windows, or even a better door!
The Nurse Manager I was talking to at Mary Bridge seemed very impressed with me because of the glowing reviews I got from my references (note to self, put their checks in the mail) and my background. He said that if I get my EMT reinstated soon to call and that they would find me an on-call position. I can still work at Mary Bridge, but not until I get my EMT back.
I can hear your next question, "What will it take to get your EMT back?" Great question and I have been working hard at figuring that out. I made contact with a lady in the Pierce County EMS office and she has given me a list of subjects that I need to pass in order to receritfy. I am hoping to be able to audit the EMT class at TCC that they are currently offering so that I can get those class hours and then pass the EMT Final. I cannot just sit for the EMT test again like I was hoping, but this is the next best thing. I will also need to find a Fire Depatment or Ambulance company to maintain my EMT certification. I would be able to go back to Vashon Fire, but I don't want to live on Vashon and finding time to be on the Island is hard... It might be a good thing though, because the Chief of VIFR was a real mentor to me when I really needed it during High School. I should call him again!
Long story short, I am back to being homeless and jobless in February, but God dosen't care about that. God wants me to worry about it as much as He does, and He has a plan already layed out for February... I just need to walk in it.
Friday, January 05, 2007
A Man on Fire...
This new name seems to fit me very well...
I love Firefighting, such a rush and so much fun! I love the pressure of performing a skill perfectly with peoples lives on the line... call me weird if you want to. I have very fond memories of training with Vashon Fire and getting my helmet melted in some of the training fires we did because it was so hot. How many people can say that they have been into a burning building? I can!
One of my favorite movies of all time is Man on Fire, starring Denzel Wahington and directed by Ridley Scott. It is a very graphic and intense protrayal of a bodyguards revenge on the people who kidnapped his charge. It ends with a very cool ending full of sacrifice and reunion. Not for the faint of heart, but a great movie.
I just finished reading a book called Fresh Wind, Fresh Fire by Jim Cymbala, Pastor of the Brooklyn Tabernacle. He writes an amazing and true story about how the power of prayer can transform a church. He very eloquently states the current starvation in the American Church due to lack of prayer and issues a bold call to wake up!
My favorite holiday is the 4th of July (shout out to all the cool people who came to Vashon for the last one, that trip will live in my memory for a long time!) The reason I love this holiday so much is because I get to light of Fireworks! I love seeing the hard earned money of people go up in smoke, oh but what cool and pretty smoke it is!
My favorite song in High School was Fireproof by Pillar. I thought it was the coolest thing ever! It really helped me to get through some things knowing that I was Fireproof in the eternal sense. I am very grateful that I know Jesus in a better way now than I did then, but I still love being Fireproof!
One of my favorite things to do is to go to the beach and light a bonfire. It is so much fun to just sit and watch the sunset, be with friends and eventually make s'mores. The best ones are when you get about 10 pallets and light those off!
A favorite story in the Bible comes from the 1 Kings 18, Elijah vs. the prophets of Baal.
The best prayer times are those where the Fire of the Holy Spirit is invited. I remeber times in the Prayer Shack with Chad Johnson and Chase Donnely as we prayed the fire of the Holy Spirit on one another. Chase always got worked by God quickly and Chad and I would end up on the floor in Holy laughter, always a great time! I need more times like that in my life.
Finally, my favorite description of a man of God comes from Zecariah 3:2, "...is this not a brand plucked from the fire?" I love this picture! As a servant of God, I am to be burning hot and completely consumed. The only way to stay on fire is for the brand to stay in the fire.
That is where my life is. I want to be a Man on Fire, consumed with passion that expresses itself as service to my King and those around me. I want to remain hot and in order to do so, I need to abide in the original fire, the Fire of the Holy Spirit.
I love Firefighting, such a rush and so much fun! I love the pressure of performing a skill perfectly with peoples lives on the line... call me weird if you want to. I have very fond memories of training with Vashon Fire and getting my helmet melted in some of the training fires we did because it was so hot. How many people can say that they have been into a burning building? I can!
One of my favorite movies of all time is Man on Fire, starring Denzel Wahington and directed by Ridley Scott. It is a very graphic and intense protrayal of a bodyguards revenge on the people who kidnapped his charge. It ends with a very cool ending full of sacrifice and reunion. Not for the faint of heart, but a great movie.
I just finished reading a book called Fresh Wind, Fresh Fire by Jim Cymbala, Pastor of the Brooklyn Tabernacle. He writes an amazing and true story about how the power of prayer can transform a church. He very eloquently states the current starvation in the American Church due to lack of prayer and issues a bold call to wake up!
My favorite holiday is the 4th of July (shout out to all the cool people who came to Vashon for the last one, that trip will live in my memory for a long time!) The reason I love this holiday so much is because I get to light of Fireworks! I love seeing the hard earned money of people go up in smoke, oh but what cool and pretty smoke it is!
My favorite song in High School was Fireproof by Pillar. I thought it was the coolest thing ever! It really helped me to get through some things knowing that I was Fireproof in the eternal sense. I am very grateful that I know Jesus in a better way now than I did then, but I still love being Fireproof!
One of my favorite things to do is to go to the beach and light a bonfire. It is so much fun to just sit and watch the sunset, be with friends and eventually make s'mores. The best ones are when you get about 10 pallets and light those off!
A favorite story in the Bible comes from the 1 Kings 18, Elijah vs. the prophets of Baal.
It came about at noon, that Elijah mocked them and said, "Call out with a loud voice, for he is a god; either he is occupied or gone aside, or is on a journey, or perhaps he is asleep and needs to be awakened."
After taunting the prophets of Baal, Elijah turns to his reliable God,"Answer me, O LORD, answer me, that this people may know that You, O LORD, are God, and that You have turned their heart back again." Then the fire of the LORD fell and consumed the burnt offering and the wood and the stones and the dust, and licked up the water that was in the trench.
I love this story!The best prayer times are those where the Fire of the Holy Spirit is invited. I remeber times in the Prayer Shack with Chad Johnson and Chase Donnely as we prayed the fire of the Holy Spirit on one another. Chase always got worked by God quickly and Chad and I would end up on the floor in Holy laughter, always a great time! I need more times like that in my life.
Finally, my favorite description of a man of God comes from Zecariah 3:2, "...is this not a brand plucked from the fire?" I love this picture! As a servant of God, I am to be burning hot and completely consumed. The only way to stay on fire is for the brand to stay in the fire.
That is where my life is. I want to be a Man on Fire, consumed with passion that expresses itself as service to my King and those around me. I want to remain hot and in order to do so, I need to abide in the original fire, the Fire of the Holy Spirit.
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Sorry for the long update.
So this morning I had a job interview with Mary Bridge Childrens Hospital. The position I am applying for is like the one I had before at Tacoma General, just in the ER that specializes only in children. I thought the interview went well and the lady seemed to be impressed with my credentials and experience. I think that I will get that job, but I won't know for a few weeks because some of the administration people are on vacation. I am excited, because if I get this job, the hours will be flexible and I will be able to work whenever I can. The other upside is that I can move up to a full time or more regular schedule over time, which would be nice.
I have been working a ton of hours here at Campus Save-me and it is going pretty well for the most part. Sometimes I feel like I live here, but that is ok. The overtime will make for a nice paycheck come the middle of January.
My Christmas was good, I got to spend more time working than I did with my family, but I think that it was ok. I also do believe that I spent more money on my parents than they did on me, but again that is ok... it is the thought that counts and they both got me thoughtful gifts which I really appreciate.
You know how sometimes people will just give money if they don't know what to get you? Well, that is my Grandma in a nutshell! She hasn't tried to buy a gift for me, either birthday or Christmas for probably 6-8 years. I did the easy route this year as well, buying my family gift cards so I wouldn't have to rack my brains to find them good gifts. I think that gift cards at least show a little thought about what the person might appreciate as a gift. I actually spent some time and thought about what kind of gift cards to give my immediate family, but whatever... I will get off of the soapbox now! I did make it through the holidays emotionally intact, though there were some moments that could have been really painful, so thank you to all who were praying for me!
Spiritually... where to start. I am in an ok place that is fast becoming a great place. One of the verses I am meditating on is Psalm 19:14,
I have been working a ton of hours here at Campus Save-me and it is going pretty well for the most part. Sometimes I feel like I live here, but that is ok. The overtime will make for a nice paycheck come the middle of January.
My Christmas was good, I got to spend more time working than I did with my family, but I think that it was ok. I also do believe that I spent more money on my parents than they did on me, but again that is ok... it is the thought that counts and they both got me thoughtful gifts which I really appreciate.
You know how sometimes people will just give money if they don't know what to get you? Well, that is my Grandma in a nutshell! She hasn't tried to buy a gift for me, either birthday or Christmas for probably 6-8 years. I did the easy route this year as well, buying my family gift cards so I wouldn't have to rack my brains to find them good gifts. I think that gift cards at least show a little thought about what the person might appreciate as a gift. I actually spent some time and thought about what kind of gift cards to give my immediate family, but whatever... I will get off of the soapbox now! I did make it through the holidays emotionally intact, though there were some moments that could have been really painful, so thank you to all who were praying for me!
Spiritually... where to start. I am in an ok place that is fast becoming a great place. One of the verses I am meditating on is Psalm 19:14,
"May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleaseing to You, O God, my rock and my redeemer."
It is such a fun verse to sit and think about. We all know that our words are very powerful and are the key to relationships, so watching what I say is super important to me.
I have been thinking a lot about ministry and where I go next and all that stuff, but the funny thing is, I don't think God cares about any of that! My personal times with Him have been very directed at getting my heart right before Him and realigning my emotions and priorities so that He is first in everything. It has been great.
I do run the gamut of emotions sometimes, from struggling to on top of the world. I feel like I should be a little more stable in my walk, but I need to realize that I am still very young in the Lord, less than 3 years, and that I have lots of time to be the man He wants me to be. I can be very hard on myself (and others around me!) for not being as mature as I think I should be, but I am slowly learning to lighten up.
I do wish that I was doing more in ministry, I remember last Spring when we would have prayer meetings almost every night! I felt God doing so much amongst us, it was awesome! I don't have that in my life. I feel like I am living a common life, with God thrown in somewhere. When was the last time I saw a miraculous encounter with Jesus? When was the last time I layed hands on someone and prayed with them? I guess I am learning to not measure myself by what I am doing and to instead see myself in my God given identity. I am the only person who can lose that identity, God dosen't take it away, so choosing to stand up and be a son of God is soemthing I desire more of.
So, I am in an ok place that I know is becoming a great place!!!
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Monday, December 18, 2006
Life after PLU
I am getting settled into the life after PLU, it is weird, but I will adjust. It is weird living in T-stad without people there, so quiet and un-obtrusive. It is great to be able to spend more time with Jesus, but I find that I want to watch TV instead. Don't worry, I will be good about my time with the Lord, it is too critical a time for me. Jennifer Furumasu has been very kind and gracious in allowing me to borrow her pots and pans over the break. I need to start cooking for myself, which I don't mind, but I don't have any food to cook so I need to work on that.
Jason Hulen came up to me before church and told me that the Lord had me on his heart lately. jason was telling me that he felt like I was in a transition time, which is definitely true, but that I was to seek God's heart and not the specifics of what I am to do next. I liked what he had to say... it kind of confirms some things in my heart, because he is not the first to say stuff like that to me.
I am excited for January... I hope that it will be a great time of prayer and fasting.
I am working 40 hours a week now and I will be through January at Campus Safety. The only problem is that on the January schedule I am slated for shifts from 4 am til 12 noon. I was not very happy when I saw it. I work that shift Monday - Thursday and on Friday's I work from 12 midnight to 8 am. I think I have the suckiest schedule alive and I will see what I can do to change it. Campus Safety has a problem with the guy who does scheduling because he does not seem to follow the availability of us employees. He seems to schedule us fairly whilly-nilly. I guess it won't be too bad, it will only be for 4 weeks and it is speeding up my deisre to find a new job.
Now that I am working more, I will have more time to write on the blog, so stay tuned for updates. I haven't had internet access in my room because my computer is old and slow so I haven't been able to keep up on my internet stuff.
Jason Hulen came up to me before church and told me that the Lord had me on his heart lately. jason was telling me that he felt like I was in a transition time, which is definitely true, but that I was to seek God's heart and not the specifics of what I am to do next. I liked what he had to say... it kind of confirms some things in my heart, because he is not the first to say stuff like that to me.
I am excited for January... I hope that it will be a great time of prayer and fasting.
I am working 40 hours a week now and I will be through January at Campus Safety. The only problem is that on the January schedule I am slated for shifts from 4 am til 12 noon. I was not very happy when I saw it. I work that shift Monday - Thursday and on Friday's I work from 12 midnight to 8 am. I think I have the suckiest schedule alive and I will see what I can do to change it. Campus Safety has a problem with the guy who does scheduling because he does not seem to follow the availability of us employees. He seems to schedule us fairly whilly-nilly. I guess it won't be too bad, it will only be for 4 weeks and it is speeding up my deisre to find a new job.
Now that I am working more, I will have more time to write on the blog, so stay tuned for updates. I haven't had internet access in my room because my computer is old and slow so I haven't been able to keep up on my internet stuff.
Saturday, December 09, 2006
PLU Grad...
That is right, I am officially a graduate of Pacific Lutheran University. I made it through all the long speaches and processionals to receive a little diploma holder that has a note telling me I will get my real diploma later. It was really fun today, but I don't feel any different. I can't understand why. It is really anti-climactic to still have school work left to do. I have one last project to turn in on Monday and then a class social meeting on Tuesday.
After the ceremony, we had a taco feed at church for friends and family. That was a lot of fun, people meeting each other and letting the many facets of my world interact. My school friends got to meet my parents and they got to meet some church family etc... I don't feel like it was a big accomplishment, but everyone else seems to think it is, so I just play along.
To all my wonderful friends and family, I love you. You really make my life better and I am a better person for knowing you guys.
I am really tired... I think Christmas break will be nice, a chance to sleep and rest. I have had a lot of stress build up over an entire semester, so it will be nice to dissipate that.
After the ceremony, we had a taco feed at church for friends and family. That was a lot of fun, people meeting each other and letting the many facets of my world interact. My school friends got to meet my parents and they got to meet some church family etc... I don't feel like it was a big accomplishment, but everyone else seems to think it is, so I just play along.
To all my wonderful friends and family, I love you. You really make my life better and I am a better person for knowing you guys.
I am really tired... I think Christmas break will be nice, a chance to sleep and rest. I have had a lot of stress build up over an entire semester, so it will be nice to dissipate that.
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Papers
It is going to be a very busy weekend... I have to write 2 religion papers, both about 8 pages or more and finish up my capstone. I guess there is a reason why I am getting used to having no sleep and stuff, it is so I can stay up all weekend and work on these papers.
There is so much to write about, but most of it dosn't matter and wouldn't do any good here anyhow. One thing God was telling me yesterday was about living at a higher level. The illustration I saw was like this...
When you are a kid, you can get away with certain things and not get in as much trouble about them as if you were to do them as an adult. I feel that way in my walk with the Lord, I could get away with things when I was younger, but now I need to grow up in God and not settle for being a child anymore. I want to live my life set apart and completely consumed.
24 Hours Of Prayer was great. A lot of people participated and some of the artwork and log entries are fantastic. It is cool to see God move in something so simple as getting together to pray for 24 hours. Antonio and I were chatting about it and we both think we need to do more stuff like that!
I only have 10 more days after today until I graduate. Crazy...
There is so much to write about, but most of it dosn't matter and wouldn't do any good here anyhow. One thing God was telling me yesterday was about living at a higher level. The illustration I saw was like this...
When you are a kid, you can get away with certain things and not get in as much trouble about them as if you were to do them as an adult. I feel that way in my walk with the Lord, I could get away with things when I was younger, but now I need to grow up in God and not settle for being a child anymore. I want to live my life set apart and completely consumed.
24 Hours Of Prayer was great. A lot of people participated and some of the artwork and log entries are fantastic. It is cool to see God move in something so simple as getting together to pray for 24 hours. Antonio and I were chatting about it and we both think we need to do more stuff like that!
I only have 10 more days after today until I graduate. Crazy...
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Happy Thanksgiving
To all the blogger world, at least the part in the U.S., I hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving today. I am currently on Vashon at my Mom's house, but I will be back at PLU tonight because I have stuff to do tomorrow.
Last night at Youth Group, I made this wonderful game in Powerpoint... it was Thanksgiving Jeorpardy. I was able to create links within the games main page to other powerpoint slides so it worked just like a game of Jeopardy. It was a blast!!! I was really happy with the game and the kids played it well. If you want to see it, let me know and I can show you how to make links within your powerpoint for all your future presentation needs.
Please pray for me today, I will need it...
Last night at Youth Group, I made this wonderful game in Powerpoint... it was Thanksgiving Jeorpardy. I was able to create links within the games main page to other powerpoint slides so it worked just like a game of Jeopardy. It was a blast!!! I was really happy with the game and the kids played it well. If you want to see it, let me know and I can show you how to make links within your powerpoint for all your future presentation needs.
Please pray for me today, I will need it...
Friday, November 17, 2006
Capstone
I present my senior research today at 2... (why am I writing this now?) It is on Tuberous Sclerosis Complex and I am excited to present...
Oh yeah!!! Afterwards I get to go to Rainier Hills and attend their Breakaway Conference with the youth (and Nate & Cori). It should be a good time.
I have some music and book reviews to post... 2 things in particular. 1 CD and 1 book that have completely rocked my world this week and have shown me such a picture of the Fathers heart troward me, His emotions, His passion and overall His beauty. It is awesome. It is really messing with me AND I LOVE IT!!!
I can truly say right now that I love Jesus more than anything! This is just where my heart is right now... look for the reviews coming soon on this blog.
I need to run and be all scientific.
Oh yeah!!! Afterwards I get to go to Rainier Hills and attend their Breakaway Conference with the youth (and Nate & Cori). It should be a good time.
I have some music and book reviews to post... 2 things in particular. 1 CD and 1 book that have completely rocked my world this week and have shown me such a picture of the Fathers heart troward me, His emotions, His passion and overall His beauty. It is awesome. It is really messing with me AND I LOVE IT!!!
I can truly say right now that I love Jesus more than anything! This is just where my heart is right now... look for the reviews coming soon on this blog.
I need to run and be all scientific.
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Update
What a day. I woke up at 3:30 again today, I know I set my alarm for 3:30 at least, I didn't wake up until 3:40. This means that I must have grabbed my phone and snoozed it while still sleeping, weird... Work has been good, but I left today at 6 am because I was exhausted. I went back to bed for another 4 hours of disturbed sleep.
Last night at youth group was fantastic. Nate Boyt and I led worship together and it went so well. Nate is a great guitar player and worship leader so to co-lead with him was exciting. We also had the "big" church come in and join us, so it went well. It was fun, spontaneuos and God moved powerfully. I asked Nate and his wife Cori to pray for me before we started because my voice has been damaged from yelling at football and I haven't been able to sing very well. I can get really self-conscious about my singing voice, but God worked even in that and Nate and Cori commented about the prayer working because my voice was a lot better during the worship set than in practice. After worship, we watched a movie about the girl at Columbine High School who was challenged by the attackers, asking her if she believed in God and she said yes.
It was powerful and the kids were really touched by it, heck I was even tearing up a little bit! We broke up into small groups and talked about sharing our faith, I had a great group and we got to pray and talk very specially.
Afterwards, Nate, Cori, Nikki and I went to Applebee's and had Nacho's. The conversation quickly spiraled downwards fast, as we were all tired. It was fun though.
God is good, worshiping God is great and the future is exciting...
Last night at youth group was fantastic. Nate Boyt and I led worship together and it went so well. Nate is a great guitar player and worship leader so to co-lead with him was exciting. We also had the "big" church come in and join us, so it went well. It was fun, spontaneuos and God moved powerfully. I asked Nate and his wife Cori to pray for me before we started because my voice has been damaged from yelling at football and I haven't been able to sing very well. I can get really self-conscious about my singing voice, but God worked even in that and Nate and Cori commented about the prayer working because my voice was a lot better during the worship set than in practice. After worship, we watched a movie about the girl at Columbine High School who was challenged by the attackers, asking her if she believed in God and she said yes.
It was powerful and the kids were really touched by it, heck I was even tearing up a little bit! We broke up into small groups and talked about sharing our faith, I had a great group and we got to pray and talk very specially.
Afterwards, Nate, Cori, Nikki and I went to Applebee's and had Nacho's. The conversation quickly spiraled downwards fast, as we were all tired. It was fun though.
God is good, worshiping God is great and the future is exciting...
Monday, October 30, 2006
Ouch...
I need to be honest here. I have been going through a lot lately, most of it relational. Some of it is good, some of it is very painful. I don't need to tell any of the details, because even though this is the internet (most private place ever) and no one reads this blog anyways, details need to be kept low key. This blog has always been intended to be a place where the people who love and care for me can read up on my life and keep up with what God is doing in my life. I hope that this leads to prayer and support for me, it is not supposed to be a place of venting or mud slinging.
I do want to dwell on some of the good things. Chase and I have been hanging out a lot and we are developing a depth of relationaship where we can really share and support each other. Yesterday, after lunch, we hung out in the room all day. I was frittering around doing anything but homework and he was studying, but the conversation continued throughout the afternoon. I really appreciated it, because we were able to share our hearts without worry. I love you Chase.
Tabitha and I go running a lot. We both think we are fat (I tell Tabitha she is crazy to think that) so we need to exercise more. I find that I can run forever, but I doin't feel like I am in really good shape. I guess that I need to do more high intensity workouts where I sprint and use bursts of speed along with the cardio that we get to do. It is one of the drawbacks of being injured, I don't get the conditioning from football anymore. I need to generate the intensity of exercise for myself, I guess that is where the power of choice that we talk about all the time at football comes in huh.
I have been thinking and praying a lot about my future. The natural first question after people find out I graduate in 6 weeks (thats correct, 6 weeks) is, "What are you going to do after graduation?" People mean well, I am sure of that, but the question gets annoying. For the record, if I graduate (I am still waiting for another financial miracle) I plan on working for Campus Safety for January term. It is a good job, 40 hours a week, free place to live etc... After January, I would like to go and work at the hospital again, like I did before I went to PLU. At the hospital, I can make good money, with lots of hours and still have time of every week. I really do want to start building a financial base for my future and start correcting some of the mistakes I have made in the past.
As far as ministry goes, I am still uncertain. I would love to go straight into full time ministry, but that is not likely. I also would like to go to some sort of ministry training, like IHOP or Bethel church have. I think that a solid time of just seperating myself out and being immersed in an environment like those two places offer would be good for me. Thos are kind of pipe dreams at the moment, but who knows what God will breathe on and bring to life. I also would be happy to go to Paramedic school and pursue a career as a paramedic, but I don' t know.
There is my heart. It hurts right now, but it is full of dreams, vision and aspirations.
I do want to dwell on some of the good things. Chase and I have been hanging out a lot and we are developing a depth of relationaship where we can really share and support each other. Yesterday, after lunch, we hung out in the room all day. I was frittering around doing anything but homework and he was studying, but the conversation continued throughout the afternoon. I really appreciated it, because we were able to share our hearts without worry. I love you Chase.
Tabitha and I go running a lot. We both think we are fat (I tell Tabitha she is crazy to think that) so we need to exercise more. I find that I can run forever, but I doin't feel like I am in really good shape. I guess that I need to do more high intensity workouts where I sprint and use bursts of speed along with the cardio that we get to do. It is one of the drawbacks of being injured, I don't get the conditioning from football anymore. I need to generate the intensity of exercise for myself, I guess that is where the power of choice that we talk about all the time at football comes in huh.
I have been thinking and praying a lot about my future. The natural first question after people find out I graduate in 6 weeks (thats correct, 6 weeks) is, "What are you going to do after graduation?" People mean well, I am sure of that, but the question gets annoying. For the record, if I graduate (I am still waiting for another financial miracle) I plan on working for Campus Safety for January term. It is a good job, 40 hours a week, free place to live etc... After January, I would like to go and work at the hospital again, like I did before I went to PLU. At the hospital, I can make good money, with lots of hours and still have time of every week. I really do want to start building a financial base for my future and start correcting some of the mistakes I have made in the past.
As far as ministry goes, I am still uncertain. I would love to go straight into full time ministry, but that is not likely. I also would like to go to some sort of ministry training, like IHOP or Bethel church have. I think that a solid time of just seperating myself out and being immersed in an environment like those two places offer would be good for me. Thos are kind of pipe dreams at the moment, but who knows what God will breathe on and bring to life. I also would be happy to go to Paramedic school and pursue a career as a paramedic, but I don' t know.
There is my heart. It hurts right now, but it is full of dreams, vision and aspirations.
Thursday, October 26, 2006
ANNE!!!
It is time for a new post on your blog, Anne... The last time you posted was Aug, 11th!!! I am about to delete your link and I don't want to do that!
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
random thoughts...
I have been downloading podcasts off of iTunes, stuff from Bethel, IHOP, Hillsong etc... It is great. I get to have some amazing preachers and ministers pouring into my life, everyday. I have also been getting a lot better about my time with the Lord, so long story short, I am getting over my spiritual apathy.
I think it is interesting that a lot of us, especially in leadership has been going through some really tough life issues, but I hope that we are turning the corner on some of that. I do feel that breakthrough is still needed and that we will only get through with unity and persistence in prayer. Bill Johnson, from Bethel Church, talked about unity and the annointing for miracles. He siad that he has never seen a child be healed when the parents were in conflict. The breakthrough (healing of the child) was prevented by disunity (parents in conflict). I think that we are experiencing some of the same situation right now, we have a good thing going at Ignite, but it could be a lot better!!!
The Lord showed me a picture the other day, it was like an archer shooting an arrow, but it was a flaming arrow. The arrow was shot into the pitch black night sky and it tore it apart. The Lord was showing me that my life is like the arrow, shot into the night sky on fire. I do not need to slow down and go at the same pace as everyone around me, because the worlds pace is actually backwards going away from God. I look to my friends so much for acceptance and love, so much that I can forget to run to God. In being an arrow shot out, I can forget about frustration, fears and failures, because they slow me down and will not help me do what God is calling me to do.
I am reading Corinthians right now, 1 Corinthians was really good, but 2 Corinthians is even better. So many nuggets, so little time. The one I want to share with you all today, because it will illustrate where I am at right now.
I think it is interesting that a lot of us, especially in leadership has been going through some really tough life issues, but I hope that we are turning the corner on some of that. I do feel that breakthrough is still needed and that we will only get through with unity and persistence in prayer. Bill Johnson, from Bethel Church, talked about unity and the annointing for miracles. He siad that he has never seen a child be healed when the parents were in conflict. The breakthrough (healing of the child) was prevented by disunity (parents in conflict). I think that we are experiencing some of the same situation right now, we have a good thing going at Ignite, but it could be a lot better!!!
The Lord showed me a picture the other day, it was like an archer shooting an arrow, but it was a flaming arrow. The arrow was shot into the pitch black night sky and it tore it apart. The Lord was showing me that my life is like the arrow, shot into the night sky on fire. I do not need to slow down and go at the same pace as everyone around me, because the worlds pace is actually backwards going away from God. I look to my friends so much for acceptance and love, so much that I can forget to run to God. In being an arrow shot out, I can forget about frustration, fears and failures, because they slow me down and will not help me do what God is calling me to do.
I am reading Corinthians right now, 1 Corinthians was really good, but 2 Corinthians is even better. So many nuggets, so little time. The one I want to share with you all today, because it will illustrate where I am at right now.
2 Corinthians 6:4-10
"... but in everything commending ourselves as servants (ministers) of God, in much endurance, in afflictions, in hardships, in distresses, in beatings, in imprisonments, in tumults, in labors, in sleeplessness, in hunger, in purity, in knowledge, in patience, in kindness, in the Holy Spirit, in genuine love, in the word of truth, in the power of God; by th weapons of righteousness for the right hand and the left, by glory and dishonor, by evil report and good report; regarded as deceivers and yet true; as unknown yet well known, as dying yet behold, we live; as punished yet not put to death, as sorrowful yet always rejoicing, as poor yet making many rich, as having nothing yet possessing all things.
I love the part where it talks about the power of the word of God and the Holy Spirit and the weapons of righteousness for the right hand and the left. It is really good, such goodness, ummm...
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Here we go...
Sorry that it has been a while since I have been on here, but life has been hectic. Last week I had two papers and two presentations to do. Along with working 20 hours, Ignite and football school can sometimes seem unimportant. I have been the most studious of all my semesters here at PLU, too bad it is my last one that I finally figure it out!
It is cool how the Lord will give you strength for things. In fact, he will prepare you for a large challenge by giving you smaller ones to build you up. Last week was tough in the fact that I had a lot of work to do, but this week has been as tough or tougher with a large midterm (tomorrow in fact) and my capston being due. The capstone is a senior research project that everyone at PLU does, no matter the major. I have to write about my project for 10-15 pages, not really a problem, but it is such technical writing and I cannot use flowery language to stretch the pages. Good thing it is only the rough draft that is due tomorrow and I can e-mail it at any time tomorrow.
I realize that I put people in front of God, and I do it alot! I know that sometimes, especially when I am in charge of something, I seem to put people second to getting a job done and to some extent I do that, but I love people so much. It hurts me a lot wehen the people I love feel that they need to come to me and confront me with issues regarding how I treat them. I have had a few conversations with people the last few weeks about some stuff and it all boils down to how I communicate with them. I need to get better at communicating and being humble. Oh, well don't we all!!!
Long story short, I never mean to ride roughshod over people and I do actually love you all, so much that it hurts sometimes.
It is cool how the Lord will give you strength for things. In fact, he will prepare you for a large challenge by giving you smaller ones to build you up. Last week was tough in the fact that I had a lot of work to do, but this week has been as tough or tougher with a large midterm (tomorrow in fact) and my capston being due. The capstone is a senior research project that everyone at PLU does, no matter the major. I have to write about my project for 10-15 pages, not really a problem, but it is such technical writing and I cannot use flowery language to stretch the pages. Good thing it is only the rough draft that is due tomorrow and I can e-mail it at any time tomorrow.
I realize that I put people in front of God, and I do it alot! I know that sometimes, especially when I am in charge of something, I seem to put people second to getting a job done and to some extent I do that, but I love people so much. It hurts me a lot wehen the people I love feel that they need to come to me and confront me with issues regarding how I treat them. I have had a few conversations with people the last few weeks about some stuff and it all boils down to how I communicate with them. I need to get better at communicating and being humble. Oh, well don't we all!!!
Long story short, I never mean to ride roughshod over people and I do actually love you all, so much that it hurts sometimes.
Thursday, October 05, 2006
Ministry Glaze
Ever been so busy and done so much work in a short amount of time that you feel exhausted and just tired deep down in your bones? I am sure you have, so that is where I am at right now.
Sean Smith came to PLU and God did some amazing things. We saw about 10-12 people give there hearts back to Jesus and some amazing miracles of healing and people being set free! It was great... but it can tend to wear you out, no matter how much time you have with the Lord. Mark Wolbert calls it the ministry glaze because you get that look in your eye that readily identifies that you don't have much left to give.
So let me tell you the chronological story of my weekend, that ended on Wednesday night! I started fasting on Saturday and seeking the Lord for annointing while at the PLU-UPS game (we won 32-28). I really damaged my voice in the process by screaming so much. On Sunday, played bass and Sean spoke. It was a great time and it ended with me at the altar being prayed for during the ministry time and that was sweet. We had a lunch meeting as an Ignite staff and then I had to jet to N. Tacoma to my brothers 21st birthday. Even though I was late, it was still a cool time to hang out with the family and see people. I left the birthday party and got back to campus to tie up some loose advertising ends. I left to go back to church at about 5:15 and I helped set up for the next service with Sean at church. I also played bass that night and I got to talk to Mark about some stuff and was able to have him cover me in prayer for the rest of the week. Sunday night was more of a ministry time and a lot of people got very touched by God. On Sunday night after church, we randomly decided to drive out to Westport... at midnight. We all crammed into Tabitha's car, Emily Hockert, Nikki, Anne Syvertson and I. We made the drie out there, stayed on the beach for a while and then drove back. Long night, I didn't sleep because I had to be at work by 4 am. It was great, we all prayed for each other and we all just got met by Jesus. Tabitha got baptized in the Spirit and we all had an absolute blast. Monday was great, Sean spoke at our regular Ignite meeting and about 8-10 people accepted the fullness of who Jesus is. Tuesday we did a big all campus event and about 80-100 people showed up for it. The night went well and God really moved. We now have a large group of people who will need discipling and care so we need to plan for that and be ready to provide for the need. God is good.
Mark asked me to lead worship last night at youth group and it was my 5th worship service in 4 days. That is about 4 hours a day (average, some were a lot more) doing stuff related to worship; getting set up, practicing, playing and then tearing down. It was great, don't get me wrong but I was ready to be done playing my guitar last night after worship. Worship last night was great because the kids realy bought into it and began to encounter Jesus in a way I have never experienced before with this group. I was not at my best musically, but Jesus showed up and ministered to kids.
So I am tired. The ministry glaze is characterized by physical and mental exhaustion yes, but also by spiritual exhaustion as well. Please pray for me that I will allow the peace of God to sustain me and to carry me along these next few days.
I love the Ministry Glaze for one simple reason. It usually means God moved in a powerful way.
Sean Smith came to PLU and God did some amazing things. We saw about 10-12 people give there hearts back to Jesus and some amazing miracles of healing and people being set free! It was great... but it can tend to wear you out, no matter how much time you have with the Lord. Mark Wolbert calls it the ministry glaze because you get that look in your eye that readily identifies that you don't have much left to give.
So let me tell you the chronological story of my weekend, that ended on Wednesday night! I started fasting on Saturday and seeking the Lord for annointing while at the PLU-UPS game (we won 32-28). I really damaged my voice in the process by screaming so much. On Sunday, played bass and Sean spoke. It was a great time and it ended with me at the altar being prayed for during the ministry time and that was sweet. We had a lunch meeting as an Ignite staff and then I had to jet to N. Tacoma to my brothers 21st birthday. Even though I was late, it was still a cool time to hang out with the family and see people. I left the birthday party and got back to campus to tie up some loose advertising ends. I left to go back to church at about 5:15 and I helped set up for the next service with Sean at church. I also played bass that night and I got to talk to Mark about some stuff and was able to have him cover me in prayer for the rest of the week. Sunday night was more of a ministry time and a lot of people got very touched by God. On Sunday night after church, we randomly decided to drive out to Westport... at midnight. We all crammed into Tabitha's car, Emily Hockert, Nikki, Anne Syvertson and I. We made the drie out there, stayed on the beach for a while and then drove back. Long night, I didn't sleep because I had to be at work by 4 am. It was great, we all prayed for each other and we all just got met by Jesus. Tabitha got baptized in the Spirit and we all had an absolute blast. Monday was great, Sean spoke at our regular Ignite meeting and about 8-10 people accepted the fullness of who Jesus is. Tuesday we did a big all campus event and about 80-100 people showed up for it. The night went well and God really moved. We now have a large group of people who will need discipling and care so we need to plan for that and be ready to provide for the need. God is good.
Mark asked me to lead worship last night at youth group and it was my 5th worship service in 4 days. That is about 4 hours a day (average, some were a lot more) doing stuff related to worship; getting set up, practicing, playing and then tearing down. It was great, don't get me wrong but I was ready to be done playing my guitar last night after worship. Worship last night was great because the kids realy bought into it and began to encounter Jesus in a way I have never experienced before with this group. I was not at my best musically, but Jesus showed up and ministered to kids.
So I am tired. The ministry glaze is characterized by physical and mental exhaustion yes, but also by spiritual exhaustion as well. Please pray for me that I will allow the peace of God to sustain me and to carry me along these next few days.
I love the Ministry Glaze for one simple reason. It usually means God moved in a powerful way.
Friday, September 29, 2006
Sean Smith, before
In the pre- Sean Smith mayhem, life is pretty hectic right now. It is really cool to see God coming through in real and tangible ways right now. All of the advertising is done and paid for, and all of the results of it so far have been amazing.
We made these cool T-shirts that say, "Are you b.l.u.e?" on the front and the time of the event on the back. Jennifer Furumasu, Emily Hockert and I were up til about 4 am making the shirts and the look really cool. People have been asking a lot of questions about them and it is getting a great response. We have about 21 shirts and hopefully we can have 21 people wearing them on Monday and Tuesday.
Sean Smith is speaking at church this weekend and then he will be on campus for 2 nights. We will be short of money, but the Lord will provide.
We are really looking forward to what God is going to do. It will be a crazy night... and I have to work at 4 am the next morning.
We made these cool T-shirts that say, "Are you b.l.u.e?" on the front and the time of the event on the back. Jennifer Furumasu, Emily Hockert and I were up til about 4 am making the shirts and the look really cool. People have been asking a lot of questions about them and it is getting a great response. We have about 21 shirts and hopefully we can have 21 people wearing them on Monday and Tuesday.
Sean Smith is speaking at church this weekend and then he will be on campus for 2 nights. We will be short of money, but the Lord will provide.
We are really looking forward to what God is going to do. It will be a crazy night... and I have to work at 4 am the next morning.
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Colossians
I love the book of Colossians... It is a wonderful read for me right now in many ways. I am super busy and I get really good at not spending time with the Lord and Colossians is all about the person of Jesus and how He is Lord of everything.
Such great passages are in this book, I am really getting blessed by meditating on them. It has been a rough emotional few weeks and this book provides so much comfort for me right now because of the centerpiece of Jesus. If I can look to Him and let all other things fade away, then I will be doing better.
It has been a healing week for the most part. I sometimes think that I am hurting more than I know and it is just a matter of time before it all comes out, but I also know that I have amazing friends and confidants to help me through this. I drove coaches and trainers to the airport yesterday and it was painful to leave them at the airport, I wanted to go to California with the guys so much. But God is so good and so much better than I can even know.
Colossians 2:9
For in Him all the fullness of Deity dwells in bodily form.
Such great passages are in this book, I am really getting blessed by meditating on them. It has been a rough emotional few weeks and this book provides so much comfort for me right now because of the centerpiece of Jesus. If I can look to Him and let all other things fade away, then I will be doing better.
It has been a healing week for the most part. I sometimes think that I am hurting more than I know and it is just a matter of time before it all comes out, but I also know that I have amazing friends and confidants to help me through this. I drove coaches and trainers to the airport yesterday and it was painful to leave them at the airport, I wanted to go to California with the guys so much. But God is so good and so much better than I can even know.
Colossians 3:3-4
For you have died and your life is hidden with Christ in God. When Christ, who is our life, is revealed, then you also will be revealed with Him in glory.
The song Blessed Assurance comes to mind.
Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine! O what a foretaste of glory divine! Heir of salvation, purchase of God, born of his Spirit, washed in his blood.
This is my story, this is my song, praising my Savior all the day long; this is my story, this is my song, praising my Savior all the day long.
Perfect submission, perfect delight, visions of rapture now burst on my sight; angels descending bring from above echoes of mercy, whispers of love.
This is my story, this is my song, praising my Savior all the day long; this is my story, this is my song, praising my Savior all the day long.
Perfect submission, all is at rest; I in my Savior am happy and blest, watching and waiting, looking above, filled with his goodness, lost in his love.
This is my story, this is my song, praising my Savior all the day long; this is my story, this is my song, praising my Savior all the day long.
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