Leadership...

Why am I called to be a leader? I don't know, but I know that is hard and I wish that I could forget about it sometimes. Pastor Tom had a real difficult message for me to accept on Sunday. It was about David and how he submitted to Saul while Saul was still alive. He talked about how David had opportunity to destroy Saul and take his rightful kingdom, but was unwiling to harm God's annoitned. I am really good at this leadership thing, I have a strong personality and I am good at getting people to do things (telling them what to do!) but I am even better at leading out of my own strength and not relying on the Lord. I told Pastor Tom that I was really challenged by his message and we got to chat for a bit after church and we are going out to dinner on Saturday after service, so I am excited about that.

I feel really confidant in the pastoral call on my life, but how to go about it is all up to God... I don't know, Pastor Tom said to go where the door is open and right now the door is open at the Youth group at PSCC and really keeps closing for me here at PLU. I wish that I could pour out more into the youth, but football starts today so I need to be here on campus during youth service times. All I can do is continue to serve in prayer and on the worship team here at PLU, because that seems to be all I am given right now...

I also got my full position with Campus Safety, so I get a room stipend that pays for my room and more hours per week as well. Hopefully I can get the stipend in cash so I can pay some bills!!!