There is so much!!!

I love having my roomate Chase around... It is great to finally have a guy that is going to push me to greater heights with the Lord in my room. Chase and I have had some great talks and even though we are friends, I think it will be great to be intentional with him and grow with him.

I have come to the place with Ignite that I have no more opinions, seriously none whatsoever. I don't care who speaks, I don't care who leads anything anymore and I especially don't care what I am doing in this ministry. During prayer on Sunday, it kept coming up about being willing to do whatever it takes to see the Lord move. For me, it is getting out of the way. The vision that I have is one of all of us working together to push something out of the mud (like a car stuck on the beach). They will see me push as hard and as strong as I can and I won't say a word otherwise. I will no longer be someone who is always talking about the ministry and what I think is going wrong, I will strain and sell myself out to do whatever it takes to see God move on this campus.

I have been placed in charge of prayer ministry along with my friend Kelsie Melton. I am excited about this. I know that there is no higher calling than to pray and help people get healed up with the Lord. In order to get better at this, I sat through Ancient Paths facilitator training. If you have ever done an Ancient Paths class, you will know what I mean when I say that I spent 7 hours with Craig Hill, on DVD. I learned alot, but it was long and monotonous and the only thing I got was to be qualified to apply to be a facilitator, I still need to be accepted by Craig's ministry, Family Foundations International. I figure that if I went through the training I probably should try and become a facilitator.

Financial update... I found out that I am $220 overdrawn in my checking account and since my credit card is maxed out, I cannot transfer money to take care of it. I also have a 2 month $120 cell phone bill and they have turned my cell service off. I owe about $120 for my credit card to pay off the ridiculous fees that Bank of America charges me. All told, I owe almost $500!!! (this is the ugliest color I could find) that I don't have and see no way of getting anytime soon. I was praying yesterday and asking God,

"Ok, where is the money coming from this time?"

I don't know, but God sure does answer prayers especially when it humbles you... My friends James Schafer and Chase have both given me about $100 each to help out. I hate money, dealing with it, oweing it and most of all, accepting it from other people. I don't know how to respond... I feel like my family should be helping out, both my mothers parents are wealthy and could easily help me out for school, but they choose to buy property or remodel their house instead. I guess I really do need to rely on God nowadays...

On to some good stuff, I get to speak at youth group on Wednesday and I am pumped!!! I was going through some crap this weekend and the Lord showed me, well spiritual authority first, but also that I need to remember God! I need to daily remember the things that God has done in my heart and the places He has walked me through! I was struck by Acquire the Fire at the T-Dome 2 weekends ago and I asked a question of God,

"How permanent has this weekend been?"

I mean there were about a thousand maybe more kids that responded and gave their life to the Lord, but what is the permanent kingdom value of these new "converts"? They are at a tenuous time in their walk and satan will try and take the seed from them. Permanence is birthed in prayer, intimacy with the Lord and remebering what He has done for us. Whenever God would do something big for the Israelites (or against them!) they would name the place according to what happened. Doug Marks calls it putting markers in time to look back on and see what God has done. I need to do that everyday...

God I remember You and I remember all the wonderful things that You have done for me and all the times that You have carried me along. I submit to Your plan and all the things You want to do in my life. I love You and I want to know You more. I will willingly wait for promotion and I will willingly wait for the things You have promised me. I will humble myself under Your mighty hand so that You may exalt me in due time. I will cast all my cares upon You because You care for me.